Freedom!!

Today is my last day at work! I am so excited!! I can’t believe I even held on this longggg! I am finally gonna be free!!

I should be looking for another job but I think I’m just gonna take a break for like a week before starting the job hunting process haha so lazy. But I’ve been so stressed the past two months (even more so the past couple of weeks) that I just need this week to do nothing.

There are so many things I want to do and I’ll finally have the time to do them! Excited! ūüėÄ

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Freedom!!

Quick Update;

I got another hair cut yesterday. Tried out a new place and the guy cut my hair wayyyyy too short. I look like a guy now. Sighhh…oh wells. Tried something new and it didn’t work out. What can I do? Definitely not going back there again though.

At work – closing registration for the upcoming event this weekend. We already extended the deadlines three times already! From May 8th till today. It’s ridiculous and I still have people sending in their qualification forms requesting for a RSVP. Like dude, the last day to RSVP was YESTERDAY. There’s this one CEO (his wife) in particular that is annoying as fuck and sends their shit multiple times despite us telling them no the first time already. I’m just gonna start ignoring it. Why do people always wait until the last minute and expect to get an exception? Like homie, we gave you a month to do this shit.

Other than work, I’ve just been really sad and depressed lately about my life. I just keep telling myself it’s only three¬†more weeks. Just gotta hold on for three¬†more weeks and then I’ll be free.

Quick Update;

Difficult Day is Difficult

My life is pretty much just work and home now and since I’m not happy with either, all I can do is vent.

So currently at work we are processing verification forms for people that qualify to attend the next event meeting. On average I have to go through about 100 emails a day and a bajillion phone calls from people asking why they didn’t get their invite yet or if I received this or that. Most people I talk to on the phone don’t know or understand so I’m always patiently explaining things to them. It doesn’t bother me too much. But today…there was this one guy…oh…my…god…I just lost my temper with him bcuz he was just being ridiculously difficult.

Me: hello, *name of company*, ***** speaking
Him: *speaks super fast in a thick indian accent*
Me: Sorry sir, can you speak a little slower?
Him: *explains his situation and asks to change location for meeting he’s attending*
Me: okay, can you email me this?

Him: I’ve already emailed you
Me: Okay, if you emailed me already then I’ll get to it and respond to your email.
Him: Can you check if you received it?
Me: I’m sorry I have a lot of emails to go through, I can’t possibly check for it. If you’ve emailed me, then I’ll respond.

It’s easier on me when people just send an email with what they want because half the time I can’t understand them on the phone and the other half is because I am extremely forget and I won’t remember what they want. So it’s best to have an email/written form of their request so that I can task it and it’ll lower the chance of me forgetting. So yeah, I worked through my emails, see his and respond.

I soon get a call from him again with him verbally responding to my email. I’m just baffled and a little bit annoyed and tell him to just respond to my email. Some time pass and get to his email. I open it and its some email he forwarded me. All he said in the email was “per our conversation on the phone”. That’s it, no context, no recap of what he wants or what we even said. I had gotten a lot more phone calls between his and opening the email so I couldn’t remember what he said on the phone – I knew I wouldn’t remember so that’s why I told him to email me!

So anyways I reply back and ask him to clarify what exactly it is he wants because I don’t remember. And then guess what? HE CALLS ME AGAIN!!

Him: *explains over the phone*
Me: SIR! Please just reply to my email
Him: I know but *goes on explaining*
Me: Can’t you just reply to my email? I talk to A LOT of people, I CAN’T REMEMBER WHAT YOU TELL ME! JUST REPLY AND I’LL GET TO YOU WHEN I CAN!

He finally gets the point and I hang up extremely frustrated. Like I don’t understand why people are like this?! Ugh…it was the first time I lost it with someone. -.-

Meanwhile, my coworker was just cackling because I’d finally lost it.

Difficult Day is Difficult

Change of Plans

At first I had planned to stick it out at my job until the end of September but I honestly don’t know if I can hold out that long anymore. On Monday, I realized yeah, I really can’t and decided I’m going to quit at the end of June. I told my coworkers (the ones that I’m close with) and one of them asked me how sure was I about quitting in June. I was feeling about 60% on Monday. Today is Wednesday and it’s gone up to 80%. Every minute I’m at work I hate my life more and more.

I believe I am a really patient person with a high tolerance for bullshit but I’ve come to realized that I am just not fitted for this position; I can’t deal with all these people and bullshit and this and that. Enough is enough.

Change of Plans

I Just Can’t

I am seriously wondering if its worth it to stay at this job when my mental health deteriorates a little bit more and more each day. I am going crazy dealing with the stupid people calling and emailing me asking if I received something or not. This one idiot, emails me, stating in the email that she received my response to her previous emails but just wanted to clarify with me¬†again if i received it. I’m just like, really??

Another thing that drives me nuts is the fact that no one respects deadlines around here. Something is due on this date but we still accept shit a week later and make exception for this person and make exception for that person, it’s so frustrating! It’s easy for the boss to yell at us to accept them but do they know how much work goes on in the background? Also, these people act like we only have their problems to deal with. I. JUST. CAN’T!

Seriously considering quitting this job next month. I honestly cannot take this bullshit. I don’t care if I don’t have another job lined up after this or that it’s hard to find a job now. It’s not like I have bills to pay – only my own credit card bills and school loans. Most of my credit card¬†is gas¬†spent on driving to work anyways!

I really¬†don’t want to continue living a life where I hate getting up every morning to go do a job I hate. I’ve only got one life. I don’t want to live it like this.

I Just Can’t

I Hate People.

One of my coworkers is really starting to piss me off. I have decided I’m not going to talk to her anymore.

I don’t know what her problem is but most of the time when we’re talking (or she’s talking to anyone in general) she gets hella defensive about her thoughts and opinions.¬†Or she pushes them like she’s correct and the rest of us are wrong. Like chill, we’re just talking.

Yesterday I was just telling her about this thread I read on reddit about unethical things doctors do. I was just saying if I ever needed surgery or something major, I would go back to the US to do because I trust the doctors in the US more than, let’s say, China (for the record, I have nothing against China). She goes¬†off on me saying that doctors in the US are horrible and that so many malpractices happen in the US too. Well, okay, I agree, there’s shitty doctors everywhere but if I had to choose between China and US, I’d choose US. But then she continues lecturing me about the bad shit doctors in the US do and that I should do my research before going into a major surgery.

Bitch, if I have to do a major surgery, I would most likely dying or heading in that direction. I wouldn’t have the fucking time to do my research. Ugh! She’s so fucking irritating with the way she talks.

It’s not only me though; she’s pissed off my other coworkers with the way she gets so defensive about her opinions and shit.

I’ve had enough.

I Hate People.

When Girls Talk.

I work as an admin assistant (sort of) and I share an office with two other girls. There’s another girl who works in the office next to us and is sort of an admin assistant/receptionist. All four of us generally get along well since we’re around the same age. Two of them are the same age as me while one is about two years younger than us. We talk, we laugh, get lunch together regularly, and sometimes hang out outside of work. It seems like everything is awesome sauce but I’ve come to realize that no matter the age, if a group of females get together, they’re bound to talk shit about each other behind their backs. I’m generally a pretty laid back and cool person. (Aside from the few things that can irritate me instantly) I usually don’t let things get to me because I understand the situation/problem/person’s personality so it’s usually just whatever – it is what it is.¬†But I’m not going to pretend I’m a saint and say I don’t talk about people behind their backs because I do.¬†

(Digressing a bit here but I find that talking about people is a regular occurrence in my everyday conversations. Does that make me a horrible person? I mean, what else do people talk about? Current events? The weather? Common interests? Themselves? What if what’s common between you are the people you know? That’s common interests…lol)

Anyways, there is one girl that we tend to talk about when she’s not around. (Let’s call her C) She’s cool and all but damn, this girl complains about everything¬†she is asked to do. I didn’t notice it at first but as I spent more and more time in the office with them, I realized she’s always complaining about being asked to do this or that. Every time someone calls in to ask her to do something, (such as calling in to follow up¬†with a case, send them some forms, or to send in some information) when she hangs up she would complain about why they can’t do it themselves, that it’s easy, and that she’s sent the form a bajillion times and for them to just check/search their old emails for it. The other girl in the office (call her W) and I just ignore her now. I mean, what do you want me to say? I’ve actually argued with C about this maybe a couple of months ago. I tried to reason with her that yes, I understand that they could do this themselves but this is¬†your job.¬†You’re the one being paid to do this so this is why they ask you to do it. She still tried to argue about them being adults and that they should learn to do it themselves and why can’t they just do it themselves? ŗ≤†_ŗ≤† i just…can’t with this girl.

Another thing C says regularly – and by regularly, I mean at least five times a day! – is “I don’t feel like doing any work today.” When do you ever feel like doing any work?! I really want to ask this but she would get angry and offended. (She gets offended easily too…we have to walk on eggshells around her sometimes.) It really irks me when she says that because she doesn’t even do any work! She’s on her phone 80% of the day.¬†Her job is to follow up with pending cases and make sure the agents get the outstanding requirements done asap. That’s it. And she doesn’t even manage that many business. At most maybe 20 cases at once and a good portion of them do not change every day so all she has to do is check them every day and keep the logs updated. When I did it, it took me at most 3 hours. She works the regular 8-5, Monday to Friday and even then, a lot of the cases aren’t even touched in weeks!

Oh and we cannot assign her anything else to do either. Because she will complain while doing it and will also do it wrong. For example, we’re doing an event¬†next month. She was in charge of collecting money from people who came to our office to pay and keeping a list of who paid. That’s it. She had¬†one job. When me and W¬†went back to check on something on the list, we realized she made typos on a lot of the agents’ codes. It made us wonder if she’s dyslexic or just plain careless. Probably the latter. After that, W took over the assignment because it would be less of a headache and done¬†correctly.

What’s even more frustrating is that C got a raise earlier this week. I couldn’t believe it because¬†she doesn’t do anything!¬†I got kind of mad afterwards but more so for W than myself because W does way more work in a day than C does in a week and she hasn’t gotten a raise in over a year. It’s really unfair for W since she generally has more responsibilities too and I find it unfair that she and C (used to anyways) have the same salary.

Personally though, I know I get paid more than both of them (I’ve been there way longer) and now I have less responsibilities and too much free time at work so I’m not going to complain lol.¬†

You can probably tell I’m closer to W than C. But yeah, anyways, when C isn’t in the office W, K (the other girl that works in the office next to us) and I tend to talk about her (C) complaining and how she doesn’t do anything.

Which makes me wonder…do they talk about me when I’m not around too?

When Girls Talk.